It's about time that I start running again to melt off those excess pounds that I've been gaining lately, but the weather is just so good I can't get myself to do it.
I was at lunch today, eating at Daphne's and just thinking to myself how good the gyro plate I was eating was. I suddenly became thankful. I was thankful that a friend that I had met when I first came out, introduced me to Daphne's. A slew of thoughts came pouring into my head about how I was thankful for each and every person I've ever dated. No matter how ugly things had ended, I've always walked away with something positive. It may be a bit late, as Thanksgiving was over a month ago, but nevertheless, I wanted to put this down in writing.
Alex introduced me to Daphne's. He also revealed just how naïve I was, coming out at the age 20, thinking that after going on a few dates with someone that he was suddenly my new boyfriend.
Joe taught me that a friendship can develop even after breaking up with someone. He showed me that if you are mature enough to talk things through, a friendship can still be formed. Two years later, we're still really close friends
Eddie taught me about romance; to this day, reading his stories on Xanga about what he goes through to surprise his special someone still inspires me.
Kevin showed me that I was a pushover, and that if I was ever going to survive out in the tough world, I would have to be blunt when the times called for it instead of trying to please everyone.
My most recent and longest relationship with Vince, conveyed to my exactly how my priorities had been laid out. The first and most important thing on my list was always academics and everything else fell afterwards. I realized that I would ignore everything around me to concentrate on doing well in school, even if that meant ignoring loved ones like my family and significant others. While that is a semi-relevant excuse, it's a cop out to some degree. I would use the excuse occasionally because I didn't want to put out that extra effort.
In the end, even if I had only been on a few dates with the people I mentioned above or if I was in a longer relationship with them, I learned from these experiences nevertheless. Despite whatever happened, I take only the positive with me, forgetting the rest; even when I let go, Karma never does. Taking away the positive aspects of these relationships has allowed to me to grow.
The gay world is such a small world, just like pharmacy. I don't know everyone, but I feel like I've atleast seen them all before.
This Christmas has been one of the best Christmases that I've had. I've been home since Tuesday now and have had a lot of time to bond with my family. I got to watch Eagle eye, Wanted, and Mirrors. This year we didn't have a traditional family dinner at home where we cooked all the food. Instead, we made it easier on ourselves and went out to Seafood Cove in Westminster to get some lunch on Xmas day. Afterwards, we went home and opened our presents. This year was different than most, because we had >40 presents total. It was insane. If we had a Xmas tree, the presents would not fit under it. Next year, we're thinking about just doing a limit of 100 dollars and doing a secret santa instead. That way we don't end up spending hundreds of dollars to get eachother extravagant gifts. Pictures to come soon
Just wanted to post a few pictures from our trip to Las Vegas. Doris had been planning the entire trip for the last two months. We left of Thursday morning, thought that we actually would be stuck in a lot of traffic but luckily, managed tole to get there in about 6 hours. In Vegas, some people got lucky and others lost unfortunately. I guess that's life. I ended up losing a total of 30 dollars on the slots and video blackjack. I wanted to play roulette and real blackjack but didn't want to risk it. Maybe next time. I'll be going back on January 7-9th if all goes well (i.e. I'm not entirely broke by the end of the holidays). We went clubbing twice, Thursday at the Blush at the Wynn and then on Friday at the Jet at the Mirage. Blush was more like a lounge/bar with a small and narrow dance floor. At first, a few of my friends wanted to leave because the club looked so small, not suitable for dancing. At about 12am, things finally kicked in, more people came, good music began to play, and the alcohol flowed within our veins. Blush suddenly became one of my favorite spots during our Vegas trip. Then Friday rolled around. I met up with Phuong and Lee and went to Treasure Island with them. We gambled some, and then went to lunch at the Venetian. Afterwards, we strolled over to Planet Hollywood for a few hours. After that we split up and I met up with my friends over at the Bellagio and went shopping with them for a bit. After the day ended came another night of dancing and drinking. We went to the Jet which sounded promising since the billboard outside the hotel read "3 rooms, 3 sounds." Apparently, Friday wasn't hot enough for them to open up the other two rooms so I spent the first 4 hours being squished as people tried to go back and forth along the dance floor. I was super pissed off when this girl spilt her vodka all over my head and body. That was a total buzz killer. I stopped drinking after that and had just a mediocre night. I'm not sure if I'll ever go back to that club.
Saturday, we all woke up and checked out of our rooms. We ended by going to this Italian restaurant before we left. Over all, I must say that this trip was the best Vegas trip I've had so far in my life. I've never really done fun stuff in Vegas. It's usually just with the family, walking along the strip or staying in the rooms as they go gambling. I'm looking forward to returning, but only if I have enough money to spend for the second trip. Happy Holidays everyone!
Sometimes I think about my love and just wonder. Is he going to be someone that is right under my nose?
Is he is a good acquaintance that I know of? Is he my best buddy from undergrad? Is he someone I know of that has yet to come out? Who knows, I guess anything is impossible. Whether he's someone that I've never seen before or someone that I've known nearly all my life, as long as there's chemistry and love, that's all I need.
Just as I had promised, some pictures from the half marathon. In the first picture I'm standing with Kimberly and Florence, and in the second picture I'm running across the finish line.
Despite some recurring frustration with memories, it's finally safe to say that I'm happy where I'm at. I don't need anyone by my side to make me happy. I'm happy with myself and how I've been doing. ::crosses fingers:: I hope I get this job I'm interviewing for on Tuesday. If I do, things are going to change, in both good and bad ways but until then, all I can do is wait and see what happens.
I never imagined that I would have the strength to do such a thing but I did today. I'm so proud of myself and all my friends that passed the finish line today. It was a total of 13 miles and I got a time of 2 hours 33 minutes and 56 seconds. This isn't exceptionally fast but I was still proud because my personal goal coming into the race was just anything under 3 hours. During the race I ran comfortably for about 6 hours or so and then the right sole of my foot got very cramped. After that I could no longer run so I had to powerwalk the rest, running only for short distances when I could. Then at the 12th mile I saw this old lady powerwalking right in front of me. I couldn't let her beat me. At this point, all we had to do was run under a tunnel and turn around the street corner. I powerwalked to catch up to her but I wasn't quick enough. When I saw the tunnel, I immediately started to sprint and just kept on running until the finish line. I guess you could say that the adrenaline helped to push me during that extra half mile. I'll update next week with pictures.
Ok back to studying. I'm so sore. I'll be immobilized for the next 2 days!
I've been studying for finals lately. In other words, I've been MIA. I just have about 1.5 weeks left before I'm free. I'm very excited to be going to Vegas for a few days from Dec. 18-20.
There have been a lot of things going on, things I'd like to write about but I just can't find time to fit in. So I promise that I'll be back right after the 15th to talk about my adventures.
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