Twilight

So I went to go watch Twilight yesterday with Michelle and a couple of my classmates. I knew it was going to be this corny teenage romantic flick with a few vampires tossed in there. It was just what I expected. The actress was just horrible; she kept on blinking her eye in disbelief at just everything. I guess I can't complain because Michelle has already warned me prior to the movie that it would most likely be corny. The only reason why she wanted to go watch the movie was because of the hot guy. As I was watching the movie I couldn't help but agree with her. Edward, one of the Culluns was so cute. He certainly played his character well and I found him so intriguing.

I couldn't help it. I couldn't stop thinking about the guy afterward and I realized how this is reflective of who I am. I like guys, everything about them. I just wish I could have found the strength to come out to my classmates after the movie. I've been wanting to, but deep down inside I am scared that they would reject me or see me in a different light. I'm scared that it'll get around to the entire class and that it would affect my professional career. This is funny because I actually came out to most of my close friends nearly 2 years ago. I even made myself publicly gay by changing my status to gay on myspace. When I entered pharmacy school though, everything changed. I became a closet gay again. One of these days I'll have strength.